I hope to use my power to iron out things

It's my 21st Birthday ;I went through with my family and the people I care.Sadly,without my lover, a vitally important person,the person I would do whatever for ,even show her the world.

Translation department admitted me to give me a chance ,but there are tones of barriers I need to get through.At this moment,I just want to share my feelings to you were you hear listening to my heart and laying on my bed.I was so fucking stupid I shouldn't let you go to a place where I can hardly reach.You know what?

I remember since you 've been gone,I 'd been being skinny because of crying and crying until you told me you would like me to become fatter ,It changed. I know why you said that is because you want me to be healthier.Guess what?I am now 63kg. I committed it then I did it.I wonder you will worry me ,think of me .....now ?I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.